Today I read a verse that I really needed to read. It comes from Matthew 20:22. The story around it involves a mom and her two boys. She wants to see her two boys get ahead - to be in power - to be important. (What parent doesn't want this for their children?) She humbly kneels before Jesus and makes the ask.
Jesus responds, "You don't know what you are asking."
She came with her plan. Jesus told her she didn't have the whole picture.
When plans don't go as you believe they should it is normal to feel anger, resentment, hurt, loss, fear, and a unfairness.
I am not sure what this woman felt as Jesus explained the bigger picture, but I know for Vicki and I we have felt these things lately.
Vicki and I felt God leading us strongly in a direction and we began to walk the process. We knelt before Him and asked for the plan to happen - only for Him to say, "You don't know what you are asking." You don't have the whole picture... no.
Ouch.
Can I say it again - ouch!
This verse today was a reminder that as we face loss or pain - Jesus has the whole picture and the dude loves us.
Trust is most difficult and most needed when you don't get what you want.
So - we again choose to trust that God knows best.
But still.... OUCH!
As we worshiped Sunday with our amazing church family I kept remembering that although Vicki and I may at times feel hurt or rejection in this whole adoption process (and life for that matter!) - God chose us - He adopted us - He came to us and got us and picked us up and took us home.
We are loved and our Daddy knows what is best so we trust Him.
Steve
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Thanks for these thoughts Steve.
Hey guys! hope your family is well! In studying John recently I come to realize that Jesus recieved so much rejection as He was following Gods will and reaching out to those who needed Him. Following Him and saying Yes to His will sure isn't always easy, but how great to know He is walking this journey with us and I know there are so many blessings we would have missed if we didn't say Yes. Thanks for your sharing! love, michelle
Hey, Ben and I experienced that feeling many times on our first adoption walk. After being disappointed 3 times, we learned how to get over the disappointments (two more) much quicker and when we were finally matched with Ellie we knew joy like never before! Hang in there!
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